Something to think about.
“For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.”
Psalm 103:11-12 NIV
Who has loved you so much, who forgives you so completely? Don’t you get it? God loves you and he will forgive you. You only need to come to him.